Now, more than ever, I live by the mantra: “Believe in myself. Believe in my vision.” Let my gut, my instinct, my inner god-self, my inner voice, and my divine spirit guide me on my journey.
And with regard to the release of my first single Dangerous, I have to listen to my gut. I have to be true to myself. I feel that the promotional images and text I have chosen to represent Dangerous and the coming out of Vixen Noir as a music recording artist, singer and songwriter are going in the right direction, for me. They may not be "THE" direction, but it feels good to me at this time and juncture. I get that orgasmic feeling downstairs. I get chills in my body. My mouth waters. My heart palpitates. And I feel like, "Yeah". If I do what somebody else wants me to do, it's not going to be a true representation of my vision, of my passion. I went over and over and over the first photo shoot I did. It's really cool and badass, but I don't think it captured fully what Vixen Noir and Dangerous are about. I got an opportunity to do a second photo shoot. I thought about it. I planned it. I prayed and meditated on it. I really dove into what “Dangerous” means for me. I really went for it. I was quite pleased with the outcome.
“What is Dangerous for me?” you might ask. The questions for me more so are, “What is a Dangerous woman? Who are Dangerous women?”
Dangerous women are women who stand in their power. Dangerous women are women who know their power. And they don't let anybody take their power from them. Who have conviction in who they are. They are committed to their tasks, their goals, their mission in life, their purpose. They know what their purpose is and they follow it to the T! They are not easily knocked off course. Dangerous women are leaders, followers, mothers, daughters, grandmothers, aunts, sisters, teachers, doctors, lawyers, artists, scientists, poetesses, sex workers, CEOs, cheerleaders, judges, wives, stay-at-home moms, dancers, singers, athletes, security guards, activists… Dangerous women are everybody. We are everybody. We are trailblazers. We are divine beings.
This is what dangerous means to me. What is dangerous for you? When you think dangerous, when you think dangerous women, what do you think? The dictionary definition of dangerous is: able or likely to inflict injury or harm. In my definition, I think dangerous is about being able to kick someone’s ass with my fierceness, my presence, my integrity, my power. I think dangerous is being able to incite change in people for the better. I think being dangerous means to courageously empower women to be their best and most powerful selves and to help motivate them to follow their true life’s path.
One of my favorite “dangerous” women is the one and only Nina Simone. I know you may have heard me say it 1000 times, but I love her, I idolize her. She is the first biggest inspiration for me musically in regard to my voice, delivery, style, poise, and persona. Dangerous BADASS, she was!!! Fierce musician, fierce activist, fierce Black woman! Whew, goddamn!!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GUcXI2BIUOQ And to think, while writing and researching for this blog post, I discovered that another artist I love, Meshell Ndegeocello, just released a CD on Oct 9, 2012 dedicated to Nina Simone!!!
WTF??? I had no idea Meshell had mad love for Nina too! You know I gotta check that shit out! God, I hope it’s good. It contains 14 of Nina’s best songs performed by Meshell with a host of guest artists including Sinead O’Connor and Toshi Reagon. I’m excited!!! (tears of joy flow) Read more about it here: http://www.innocentwords.com/tabid/807/itemid/4807/Meshell-Ndegeocello-Releases-Pour-Une-me-Souvera.aspx
So… Vixen Noir is Dangerous! I am not here to be dictated to and to be told what to do or to be anybody’s rag doll or door mat. But… Dangerous women are also vulnerable. There is so much strength in vulnerability. The key is that Dangerous women know that there is strength in their vulnerability. It’s fucking crazy. I experience it often at my job. If I’m feeling really in my power, strong, confident, it works, but I think it can also be intimidating and cause customers to not want to interact with me as much. But when I’m vulnerable for whatever reason, OMG, customer interaction increases by 50% or more. What I find is that in these interactions, I have more power to motivate, shift consciousness, connect with people’s souls. We vibe together, dance together, create together.
My girl Nina Simone refused to conform to the music industry’s standards and expectations. She refused to be categorized as one specific genre of music. She stood firm in her conviction as an artist and civil rights activist. I am reminded that I must stay true to me and my vision no matter what. And that’s exactly what I’m gonna do. Now that’s DANGEROUS!!!